I taught Relief Society this Sunday which was kind of nerve racking at first. However as I woke up Sunday morning I felt piece and comfort knowing it was all going to be ok. My lesson was based on the talk by Elder Renlund "Abound In Blessings." I was worried that it was so complex and that I wasn't going to be able to teach it very well. I have a tendency to over think things. However It turned out just fine and I was able to teach no problem. I was nervous, and I forgot my train of thought a couple of times, and it was hard to get people to talk. Despite all that the lesson went really well, and I was able to share my testimony of how I overcame my anxiety and it helped someone in the class which is so amazing. I am grateful for the time I had to teach, I learned so much from this experience, as well as reading the talk by Elder Renlund. I truly feel that we are given opportunities to teach in church to help us learn and grow, and they are often the things we need to study the most.
Every other Sunday we have dinner with my family, which can be good sometimes and others very draining. Which is why we go every other Sunday, because its not worth the emotional drain that I go. Its just my husband, my daughter, and my mom and dad. My parents can be very hard to be around sometimes, especially when they feel like they know everything and you should do what they want. Any ways it wasn't to bad this time we played monopoly and scrabble, which was okay. But my dad always has to make sure he wins which can be annoying.
While we were at my parents I was looking at Facebook, and noticed something that one of my cousins put on Facebook that kind of struck a cord. Basically she said that she was mad at our side of the family because we never come to family functions and she was done trying. When we try our best to make it. Any who my dad said that we needed to just run to her aide and swallow our pride and just say we were sorry, when we didn't do anything wrong. This comment made me really mad because we are expose to do that for our cousin, but he cant even do that with his own kids. Our family is broken and we are not together as siblings and my parents feel entitled to apologies rather then swallow their pride and realize that its better to have there kids in their life's. But we can do that for are extended family. This made me mad, maybe my father should take his own advice and start swallowing his pride and realize he is not as great as he thinks he is. This might sound a little harsh to say about someone's parents but I honestly feel like its time for them to grow up, and the only one they can blame for their kids not wanting anything to do with them is themselves.
I really hope that my family can be whole again and we can overcome so many things, and that one day we can all become stronger because we worked our the trials of so much heartache. But that will depend on my parents and how hard they are willing to fight for our family.
I also feel like Facebook is not the place to air your problems with other people. What ever happened to being an adult and talking to people? Rather then have them figure out how you really feel on social media. I feel like its just a way to get attention, and not really helpful to building relationships with other people.
Until next time have a wonderful day.